Learning to Be Balanced

March 28, 2018

Life is all about Balance. 
You don't always need to be getting stuff done.
Sometimes it's perfectly okay, and absolutely necessary, 
to kick back, shut down, and do absolutely nothing. 
- Lori Deschane

I started the month of March with back surgery.  Talk about feeling off balance.  For six weeks after the surgery my instructions were no B, L, T-ing.  No bending, lifting, or twisting.  The screws needed to fuse to the bone, so this was very important.

Go ahead, try it for just a day.  It will surprise you how much you CAN'T do.  Making the bed, loading the dishwasher, dusting, vacuuming, just to name a few.  Can't do it.

Just getting into and out of bed requires some slick moves.  Log rolls, laying on your side as you lift your knees onto the bed.  And absolutely no sleeping on your stomach.  Did I mention I love to sleep on my stomach?

I was off balance.  Friends were bringing food.  My Mr. B was doing dishes and laundry.  I did have to show him how to use the washing machine.  I couldn't even clean out the toilets or change the sheets.  As I lay there I can see things - cobwebs, stuff on the floor.  So yes, I call My Mr. B and he handles that for me.  Some of it I just let be, because I can get to it in a few more weeks.

As the weeks have gone by I'm gaining more balance.  My first walk was one lap around the nurses' station.  Now I walk at least two miles a day.  It's slow, but I'm moving forward.  Albert Einstein said, "Life is like riding a bicycle, to keep your balance you must keep moving forward."

Walking and laying flat on my back are my best positions for healing.  So I've watched a lot of Netflix.  The Crown and Heartland are favorites.  I've read lots of things on my Kindle.  Some good, some not so good.  I've been able to keep up with my scripture reading and journaling.

I still make lists and set goals for myself (or what I may need My Mr. B to do for me).  Some of the things on my list are things I want done the next day.  Some of the things are long term goals that involve my health and body.  Is it selfish to say that it's been kind of nice to just think about myself for a while?

There is a children's book by Geoffrey Hayes entitled, "Bear By Himself."  It starts out, "There are times when a bear has to be alone with himself, to think his own thoughts and sing his own songs. He must pause and enjoy:  listening to the quiet, smelling the rain or talking to a river. . . As the evening deepens to darkness, there is his own friendly house to come home to with his books and his toys and his own soft bed.  He feels the dark and sleeps - and dreams."

To gain balance, maybe I needed to be forcefully stopped - to just be by myself for a while.  And guess what, I kind of like myself.  Give me a few more weeks and I'll be able to balance on one foot, or the other, or have both feet firmly planted on the ground as I move forward.

Thanks for stopping by!  I enjoy good company,


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